“It’s like watching a movie where you know every line by heart, but it’s on fast-forward.”
I’m trying so hard to maintain a positive attitude but it’s getting more difficult every day. I honestly just don’t want to be in school anymore. My brain is on academic overload and I can’t get my thoughts to slow down enough to be able to do anything productive when it comes to reading or writing.
But the last thing I want to do is go home and leave my life up here at college, even if it would only be temporarily. After this quarter, I’m only five classes away from earning my BA. I’m so close but I really don’t think I can make it this last stretch…
And the idea of going to class soon to take an in-class essay exam is kind of making me nervous. Normally I’m really good at these, but right now I’m scared I won’t be able to make my mind slow down enough to write. I know all the information, I just can’t coherently put my thoughts together anymore. It’s like watching a movie where you know every line by heart, but it’s on fast-forward. Even if you can recite every word, you can’t remember/speak them fast enough to keep up with the speed of the movie. That’s what my mind has been like the last two quarters. And it’s making me thoroughly exhausted.