So remember that thing where I got on an antidepressant recently that also treated for ADHD
remember how I was excited about that
Well we’ve been noticing that my logical processes do seem a little more organized, and I’ve been getting a lot of writing done, I have the capability to just sit down and write the things that are in my head just because I want to WHICH IS SO WEIRD, and I can keep a simple plan in my head long enough to execute it and that is so much more amazing than it sounds
but
I have also been picking my skin a lot more lately, and my shoulders are almost constantly bleeding and have developed a lot of little scabs at the nape of my neck and have ripped off almost all my cuticles so washing dishes hurts like fire
and I just figured out
it is probably
the medication
It’s not nearly as bad as it was the last time I was medicated a few years ago when I had some pretty amazing stress and self-hatred going on, but it is definitely way worse than it has been.
And I just
apparently have to choose between having a brain that works for me instead of against me or not tearing holes in my skin
DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT
